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Posted on January 3rd, 2015

I realized something today. I'm a perfectionist. However, I don't strive for it with everything. Just those things I feel like I can succeed at. I try things and if it is something I see progress in, I continue. If no progress or if there is failure after failure, I will drop it. I hate to lose, no matter what it is. Add competitive to perfectionism and it's a juicy combo. One example is snowboarding. After trying it with lessons and falling on my rump about 100 times, I decided to put it down and go eat hamburgers in the lodge. Not worth the disappointment. A burger wouldn't disappoint me and I knew I could conquer that. :)

I realized today that I do this spiritually. Some days I think, "What's the point of really trying cause I'm going to fail anyway?!" Just being honest here because it feels like a small breakthrough in my journey with God. Maybe His showing me this today will help me in those moments where I don't feel like pursuing Him the way He deserves to be pursued. Crazy how a silly personality trait, a flaw really, can cause so much damage to my walk with God. 

I think the effort now is reminding myself continually of God's unconditional love and that no amount of performance, good or bad, will change his love for me. Wow, that's hard to let that sink in, but I want to. 

Posted on October 9th, 2014

Reading a devotional called A Look At Life From A Deer Stand (by Steve Chapman) that my buddy Matt gave me. Good stuff. Today's lesson was really good. 

In response to Psalm 1, Chapman says, "I want to be that man - bold enough to avoid the pitfall of listening to the lies of those who do not embrace the wisdom of the Lord. I want to walk close to my Creator and not stand where sinners tread back and forth to their wickedness."

As creatures of habit, whitetail deer leave a path where they go. They will wear down a trail through the woods going to and from their normal places of eating and bedding.

This causes me to question my paths. What trail am I leaving? Does the consistent path of my life lead to patterns of wickedness or self-sufficiency? Or does it lead out of my bed and into a consistent walk with Christ?

This is what I desire, but I'm so far from having arrived there.
Thankfully, my Father doesn't quit on His kids.

Posted on August 28th, 2014

No, I didn't mispell a word. I mean to say "till", instead of deal, in the title. Let me explain. 

This morning at Fight Club, one of the guys said that he and his wife often struggle with comparing their present to their future. They suffer from the "TILL" syndrome.

Just wait till we have this. Just wait till we have that. Just wait till....fill in your blank. 

Truth is, we all do it. We think that a future circumstance or event will make our present heart content. But it NEVER works. It's always postponed until the next event and the next and the next. You get the point. 

Psalm 16:11 says, "You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore." 

The "till" you are searching for is available to you right this very second. His name is Jesus. He is wanting to show you the path of life and fill you with the fullness of God (Eph. 3:19). 

Jesus died to save us and He's also dying to satisfy us.

Question is, will we let Him? 

Posted on August 15th, 2014

Saddened by the news that Vicky Beeching, a prolific worship songwriter, has come "out of the closet" and is in favor of same sex marriage. It breaks my heart.

It breaks my heart NOT that has said she has struggled with homosexual feelings for most of her life. We all have our different struggles, and have sins that haunt us and fiercly battle for our allegiance.

It breaks my heart because she, along with many others, simply give in and compromise on an OBVIOUS truth in the Word of God, because they can't seem to come to grips with the Bible's opposition to their specific sin. That's the tragedy. 

We all struggle, but that doesn't give us the right to neglect God's Word and do our own thing. 

Praying for eyes to be opened and God's love to reign in the dark places. 

Posted on August 10th, 2014

We are rescued to be on a rescue mission. 

Been reading in Isaiah for a little bit and I learned something in chapter 6. If you're familiar with Isaiah, you know chapter 6 is where he has a vision of the Lord and the seraphim comes over and puts a hot coal on his lips, cleanses him and tells him his stains are now gone. What a great thought of the power of the Gospel in removing our guilt and cleansing us of our sins. We could park there for a LONG time, but I that's another post. Check out what happens right after that. 

7 "And he touched my mouth and said: “Behold, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away, and your sin atoned for.”

8 And I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?

Notice, immediately after he was cleansed, the Lord is asking for someone to be on mission for Him. Awesome thought. We are not saved to get "fat and happy" over our salvation. There is certainly something to celebrate and we should, but let's not forget that we were rescued to be on mission.

Robby Gallaty, a pastor in Chatanooga, says this, "The Gospel came to you because it was going to someone else.” I had to think a little on that, but it's true. Seems like Isaiah wants us to understand the same thing as well.

Let's be about God's rescue mission! 

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